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She was so sad this afternoon and it really hurts me. This is first time I saw her cry. I don't want her to cry. I hope you get over this bb, i <3 you (:

and oh, I would love to hug you again (=

I'm so sad right now.

Okay. She's dating. It hurts so freakin bad :'(

FOREVER ALONE...

OMG

like OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!! She really made my night happy.. What happened? Well I was on the stairs then she went down.. I blocked her and asked for password.. She suddenly hugged me and said "I love you too".. OMGGGGG I'm dying of happiness right nao aslkfhlaksbfakbfal. Still, I can't forget about her rumored boyfriend.. If only I have a deathnote.......... Night (: (:

I don't really know what day is it. Lol

I've been very busy and we didn't have much interaction lately.

I'm really sad :'( my heart is breaking. I feel like I'll be alone forever ~

Okay, so this is what happened..

Last friday there was a football game in our school. So.... This football player is hitting on her T_____T it really hurts me. I heard that guy even gave her his jersey.. Which I think only couples do.. DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN..

So today her brother had a football game and he was there @___@ I saw him with my two eyes and she looked shy.. Which means she likes him =( this is really hard. I want to stop myself from liking her. I feel like crying. KTHXBYE

Day 4

Hi!! How are you today? Haha I didn't get to write yesterday cos I was soooo tired. I slept like 5 or 6pm then woke up at 5.30am yey :) I loooooove sleeping. If I would to choose between sleeping and eating I would choose sleeping. Haha so nothing really much happened yesterday cos just as I said I sleep early @_@

Hmmm.. I'm relieved :) she cares for me. Hihihi I really had a headache this afternoon that everytime I walk it would hurt!! So what she did she gave me medicine haha

I hope she's okay :( she look sad today. I dunno, I asked her if she's okay she said she's just tired and she also have a headache.. She was supposed to go to the talent show at our school but I think she's really sick..

GET WELL SOON! I LOVE YOU :)

My sister was playing my guitar then she suddenly showed up and gave me her pick hihi she said I can have it since she doesn't play guitar anymore. Well, the pick looks very nice. She said "You can have this I'm not playing guitar anymore" and I said "Oh, thank you!!" then she's like "It's colorful" WEIRD where did it came from LOL then she left. On the other side of the pick there's a peace sign. Haha I really don't like those kind of things but since it's hers I'll treasure it <3

It's still early I dunno if something will happen later so I'll just edit this if something does happen.. Maybe I should take a bath >< so bye!

Day 2

Hallooo! Haha. How are you :) Omg I am so late >< btw, I forgot to tell you yesterday that we hugged! Hahahahaha. But not really hug hug.. Here's the situation.. We went bowling right and it was really cold.. My sister asked me to hug her so I hug her. Then I said "who wants to join" she said "join what?" i said "group hug" with a big smile in my face haha so eventually there's three of us hugging but still i hugged her and she hugged me. Hahahaha omg I look so crazy laughing by myself. Heehee

Sooo.. What happened today... Uhhh... She had a softball practice. I didn't tell you that she play sports right? Well, she plays softball and volleyball.. Nice :] so yea she had a softball practice and I cooked lunch. Haha I just made a fried rice but still.. Here's the best part SHE STOOD NEXT TO ME AND ASKED ME WHAT AM I FIXING AND I SAID FRIED RICE THEN I ASKED HER IF SHE WANTS SOME AND SHE SAID YESSSSSSS.. Yey! Hahaha yeah i know its not that exciting but for me it is.. Hehehe. So we watched his brother's football game. Damn it I really hate being under the sun! For god's sake I am not an American @_@ I don't like being tanned by the sun damn it. HAHAHAHA. Okay yeah as usual their team won. It's not really new everytime we watch his football game they always win. So.... Let's put that aside haha.. I'm so happy right now cos I feel like I'm being closer to her for like step by step? Haha I dunno how to explain it but I hope you understand that. Haha. So I put a cube ice on her mom's back haha I just got back at her YEAH! >:) i think she thought its fun so she also got an ice cube and we put it in her mom's back haha yeah we're a team <3 then I put a ice cube on her haha! That is totally skinship coz I was like on top of her and putting the ice cube inside her clothes >< damn it it sounds like perverted. Hahahaha. Anyways she got back at me :( and I am so embarrassed cos I tripped infront of her fuck haha so she got the chance to put the ice inside my clothes but who cares its skinship!! hahahaha..


There's one thing that bugs me. That Mervyn guy. Her mom said that she's exchanging texts with whoever that Mervyn guy is. I am really jealous :( so i asked her mom if it's her boyfriend she said "NOT YET" I'm like WUTTT !? what the hell is that supposed to mean??? You mean SOON? danggggggg. But I just said that on my mind. Hahaha so I searched that guy in her friends list and found him. He doesn't look special :/ haha i think they're just texting cos the guy doesn't do any wall posts on her profile but I'm not really sure maybe she asked him not to put any stuff on her wall cos her mom might see it T_T SON OF A BITCH I'M GETTING PARANOID >_< i hate it. This is day is like a kinda so-so day.


Okay I told you everything about what happened today. I have a class tomorrow fck I am so lazy I dun wanna go to school T_____T but I'm not sleepy yet so I'm just gonna read stuffs. Hihihi. So bye! I love you! Thanks for listening to me. Hihihi you're the best :)

Day 1

This is my first blog and I made this so I can tell my feeling here about this girl I like but would never like me back. Why? Cos she's my niece. BUUTTTTT we're not related. I mean, my mom married another guy so that's how she became niece .. She's my stepfather's grand daughter... This is really bugging me... I can't tell anyone coz that is really weird.. so you'll keep my secret right? Okay so... My blog title... It's a japanese phrase in english "I can't but I love you" or something like that i forgot LOL.. Okay first I'll introduce myself.. But I'm not telling my name incase someone will read this HAHA I have to keep this a SECRET hihi.. But you can maybe call me uhhh I can't think of anything >< but I'm not saying my name it's confidential! Hahaha but you still trust me right? Hihihi and i'm 16 .. and will be soon 17 LOL .. I'm from an Asian country (sorry I'm not saying it coz I really need it to be confidential. Hope you understand D: and been in America for 4 months.. Uhm.. I think that's all I can say xD


Hmmm.. I don't really remember when I started liking her.. I think it's just 2weeks.. and WHY i liked her.. I mean she IS pretty but she's not that tall and she looks kinda fat because of her being short and her kinda big front LOL but she's really nice :) and GORGEOUS eyes.. seriously she gets that a lot. Haha. 

Okay I'll tell you about us.. At first we're not really close like we don't talk to each other much.. I dunno maybe she's shy haha but I'm shy too DX then just like this month we kinda became close hihihihi *blush* haha and actually we are LIVING under one roof :P nice, eh? HAHA

Today September 25th we went bowling.. With our family ofcourse LOL there 6 of us and we split in 2 groups.. And I'm on the dsame group as her.. Yey!!! haha we had 2 rounds and at first we lost :'( then the 2nd round we won! Thanks to me.. Hahaha! Then we got icecream after.. Going to the bowling alley took us an hour! Haha yeah we got lost x( and she fell asleep.. This is like the 3rd time I saw her sleeping :) First time I saw her sleeping was when we went to her grandma's house.. 2nd was when we were watching a movie haha she fell asleep coz she's really tired and this was 3rd.. actually I like it when she's sleeping in the car.. Why? Cos it feels like I'm sleeping with her :) It's really nice haha..

But I have 1 problem.. And it really bugs me :'( SHE IS CLOSE TO MY BROTHER. Sucks right? Sometimes I feel like hating my brother because of that which is not good. :(

I think i already wrote too long. Haha! I'll write to you again tomorrow :) and this will serve as Day 1 cos this is the first day i write to you LOL does that make sense? And I still have to do my fuckin' World History homework !! DAMMMNNNNNNNN IIIIIITTTTTTTT x( hahaha

so... BYE :) ADIOS! ANYEONG! PAALAM!